Sometimes you can have all the plans correctly thought out, all the T's crossed and all the I's dotted but still things don't work out. I pride myself on being intelligent but in matters of the heart... I have been a pure idiot. I think the problem is I am way too trusting and my heart is way too big. It's rather easy for me to fall for the idea of a person instead of the actual person. Once the realization sets in, I go running off into the night. On top of all of this, I am very suspicious. I suppose I see a double meaning in everything. Just once, I'd like to give my heart completely and not have to literally watch it be trampled. Love is different from the way that it used to be. People don't love unconditionally anymore. They play games just to get what they want. Oh the times I've been ripped to shreads. After I finish working on this business degree, I am liable to run until I can't anymore. What am I running from? I'm really not sure...this from an analytical mind. Maybe I'm simply running from me or memories of letting myself be hurt. The point is,well I won't let it happen again. I see the writing on the wall with and without my contacts. I won't go on the notion that love is blind. I think love is in a coma and may never see the light of day again. I'm not angry or upset... I just realize that sometimes we fall for the wrong person for all the right reasons....
To be continued.....
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